I felt all the feels that I can about the 2016 US Presidential election. I supported other women. I tried to limit my news intake. I gave back. I sought support. I have been feeling all of this for the last 11 months and now it is time to stop mourning the nation’s loss. I need to move on. I need to feel different feels and get on with what is important to me. They say you do not get over a loss you move on. Time to move on.
I am not sure how many other liberal minded women have gained 40 pounds in the last year but I did. My perpetual state of anxiety, rage, and depression has truly affected my life in so many ways. I have eaten my way through these feelings. I am sickened every day by everything the Cheeto is doing that I am depressed. When I am sad, I eat. I eat my feelings. I have eaten so much. Now I need to stop eating.
Why did I let this election, this monumental defeat cause me so much strife? Really? Seriously? Most of the country elected a man with no political experience. They rejected the most experienced candidate in decades and she would have been the first woman president. It is also because that man was so offensive to not only women but also minorities. His attitudes, behaviors, and words were so morally reprehensible. Republicans were so desperate to be in charge they embraced a misogynist, xenophobic, racist, nationalist asshat. To live under a Trump presidency is downright scary to many, many women (and some men as well).
I went through all the emotions – denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. I accept that he is president. I also accept that I no longer respect the office and that every day is a shit show. I will be waking up every day until this nightmare of over wondering…why… how… It will not go away. However, I need to move on and live in this new, horrifying world.
There will be moments when I want to stuff 42 Twinkies in my face. And if there is an impeachment I will celebrate by eating a sheet cake. To get through it all I will continue to work with women who want to run for office. I want to reach my personal goals and run myself. I mourn what could have been. What should have been (3 million more votes… damn Electoral College). I know it is time to channel my energy in to the positive. Time to think before eating that pint of Halo. Time to resist, affect change, and take care of me.