For years my weight, my size, and my perception of what I looked like kept me from doing things I truly wanted to do. Everything from spa days to public speaking to wearing calf high boots. My fear that I was too fat to do these things kept me from truly enjoying my life.
Being naked in front of a service professional was horrifying. I felt like there was no way someone would want to see me naked. I feared what they would be thinking when it really shouldn't have mattered one bit. If they were real professionals it wouldn't cross their minds. I was another client that needed a service. But there I was for many years afraid to get services done because of my size.
I thought I would never be able to launch my speaking career until I got to my goal weight. I was getting discouraged because I have not been able to get to that goal. After speaking recently I realized most people relate to the journey rather then the destination. So here I am making a leap in to the unknown.
Last week I went out and bought those boots. Wore them yesterday with my skinny jeans. It felt good to do something that was completely visible to the world. And I think they looked great. It was totally liberating to say to the world in my own way that I am fat and fabulous.
When we don't do something we really want to do we can create life that is not full. It can create depression. It can facilitate binge eating, self loathing, and keep us from being powerful in our own skin. We also can stunt what our daughters, sisters, and friends see about loving ourselves. And that is what we need to do. Love ourselves. So do that one thing that you have been wanting to do that you haven't. Take the chance. See what a day would be like without hesitating. The results may be more then you expected.