For many years I believed the lie that it was OK to be overweight. That I could be "healthy" and be obese. I probably was healthy in the medical sense but certainly not in the long term sense. Things were not going to turn out well for me. Of course it started with my blood sugar going up gradually over time. When I hit 40 the years of abuse started having consequences. My knees just could not take it anymore. Now they are really starting to hurt.
I never want anyone to think that I hated myself. I think all of us need to love ourselves no matter what size we are. We also need to know and realize how we can take care of ourselves. Loving ourselves means taking care of ourselves. That may mean more exercise, less food, weight loss, therapy, and eating right. Whatever it is, bad habits, food addiction, lack of motivation, we need to work on getting better, doing better.
The situation is this. I have torn meniscus in both knees, bone spurs in both knees, not a lot of fluid left to cushion them. I will be getting an injection of a gel that will supplement my own knee fluid. It is supposed to help reduce the pain and inflammation. I also started taking an NSAID for pain when I need it. But the best thing I can do is lose weight, keep going to yoga, move more, and rest when I need to.
I abused my body, Thankfully I started turning that around last year. I started losing weight and eating better. There is a long way to go. But I am done being an abuser and being abused. Time to get moving again.