It started with recommitting to tracking everything that I eat including the foods that are zero points in the Weight Watchers program. I know that I need to track everything that goes in to my body. This keeps me accountable to myself and to the program. It was easy to fall off the wagon. Food is wonderful. It is loving and kind. It tastes so good. Over Memorial Day weekend The Hubs and I went to San Diego and decided to go to one of my favorite places. I had lived in San Diego in the 1990s and loved it. I was young, on my own for the most part, and did not worry about my weight. That restaurant was one of my favorites. We have gone a couple times and thought we would see how their new location was and if it was the same. It was not. It lacked everything that I used to love about it. The food was good but as I was eating it, I realized that I was eating it as I used to be, not who I have become. And the person I want to become does not eat the way that person did. I want to eat better. I want to be better. And I don't want to be that person anymore. We won't be going back. Instead, the next time I am in San Diego, I am going to go somewhere else. Because it was not worth it.
I need to reconnect with what a felt about yoga. Today I will step back on to the mat. I know I will be taking a step back as I am sure I slipped in some of the progress that I was able to make. And I am ok with that. I have gone back on my weight and I am learning to accept that. To really know that this is a journey. I know it may happen again. And probably again in the course of my life. What is great about all this and how I am feeling now, is that I am not beating myself up about it like I used to. It helps to know that I have changed enough to know what this all means.
So back to the mat I go. I am already in my yoga clothes and ready for the work day to be over so I can get back to what makes me happy. Being on the mat, for one hour a day, finding some namaste in my daily life and this journey to better health.