I have been on this journey for 18 months. I have definitely stalled and despite my best efforts in trying a do over for the last couple of months things have not stuck. I have gained some weight back (about 5 pounds) and it worries me. I could easily slide back in to some hole of binge eating. I completely thoughtlessly ate yesterday to the point of being physically uncomfortable. It was a familiar feeling. One I really did not want to feel again and has shocked me back in to my program.
I still obsess about food sometimes. Yesterday I kept thinking about what I could eat and how much. This is not a good sign. The work that I have done in these last 18 months got me to a point where I was not constantly thinking about food. I am definitely slipping back in to old habits. The lure of social events has been a temptation that I was able to resist a year ago but now seems so hard.
Today is another chance for me to re-embrace the way of living that has changed so much for me. I need to shift my thoughts and refocus. This week will be one to make better choices and to get in some physical activity. Due to an injury I am giving yoga a shot. It is harder to get back on then it was to start so I am just going to start.